Fashion Alert!

I really think that I should write something just so that the entry below is not going to be the 1st entry in this blog. Bukannye tak sensitive to noi's friend, but pictures of darah and gigi+gusi!#$ eeeeeiiikkkkkk... aku bukannye doc or bakal doctor yg ready nak tgk mende2 ni... eeeeiiiiikkkkk... there's a reason why some of us tak nak jadi doctor (apart from mmg tak dpt offer pun ekekek).

Ok lately I've been browsing goodies from UK. I've never been exposed to UK or european brands before. I have few friends studying there but I don't think they care much pasal branded stuff pun. Ala student kan, I know exactly how it feels bila banyak gile homework, quizzes, group meeting etc plus mana ade duit weih. I remember that I have to struggle through my college life.. ikat perut tak makan sbb takde duit nak beli food. Thats the reason my weight went from 53 kg before fly to 44 kg bila kat Purdue! Percaya atau tidak. Later on I looked for on campus jobs and life turned around a lilttle bit, tu la duit gi travel. Zuhri had a better luck being a grader and TA..
Ok so browsing punya browsing and with some inputs from my sis in law, I cam across this brand 'Radley'. I lurveee the handbags...so cuteeee. Ingat nak cari la kalau ade jual kat US.. unfortunately (a good thing i guess?) takde. Hampes... ade la 2-3 yg jual tapi x cute. I think brand ni tak masuk market US sbb american kan stylo tak nak pakai brg cute2 plus americans are so proud with American brand. Even Zuhri pun ckp the bags look like bags for teens... more like for budak form 3. He said it doesnt suit me... sbb diriku dah tua ke?? Aisey suddenly the reality hits me. Believe it or not I'm actually attracted to the doggie tag je huuhu..

I likeee this pink bag (top). So cute tapi harga $150, should I get it? Meng ckp bag ni nampak murah not worth it but it's actually 100% genuine leather. I really want it so bad.. tolong bagi as a gift pls pls...ekekek

This brown bag is the one that I got from TJ Max but I'm not sure if I should keep it. Most probably I will la.

Then I was told msian dah pakai tudung imported from UK plak..tie rack brand. Man... didn't know that. I thought all this while tudung ikin yg glamor thou not my taste la so buruks. So I did my 'research' again... and found out banyak msian blog jual tie racks scarves. Tempted to buy one, looked around and takde jual kat US lagi! Double hampes!! I came across an article from consumer goods website yg tie rack kena banned kat US sbb tak meet some standard requirements, material senang terbakar. Aiiiissshhhhhh.... whats the deal here with UK vs. US goods. Oh well maybe I should buy more barang buatan Malaysia. I did indeed. Aritu balik Msia borong baju baby.. hehe I think the price is good, quality is ok. Some people would kill for an imported RM400 baju baby, my goodness are they for real! I think I can still think straight. I'd rather keep my RM 400 for something else.
I hope tie rack won't steal the popularity of local tudung like tudung bawal etc. I doubt it since tudung tu nampak licin semacam je, ade ke org nak pakai all the time. Iye..Msia's economy depends on Msian buying local stuff. ok ok i know i'm not in the right position to promote brg msia sbb tak dok msia pun.

Gem.. aku tau ko suka pakai tudung lilit2 ni cuba la tgk. Oh yg klaka nye kan I saw org pakai this tudung lilit2 la kan so I thought mesti beli kat jls TAR. Paksa la meng gi berhambat beli, last2 I found out from my sis in law yg tudung ni imported from UK. Ekekke...nasib la. Sama je kot sume pun berlilit2.

Noi where's my baju from India? Ape kate ko tulis pasal india fashion plak.

huhuh ngeriiii

ni saje nk share pictures tken during surgery one of my batch mt..dier ari2 accdent n maxillary bone(bone's of the face) fractured(cheek bone)..so dier undergo surgery mskn besi sume besi dlm muka..n through whch way???huhuh through dier upper gums..sgt2 sakkiittt!!!hurmmmm ni laa ade gamba2...den hope sume orng pasni berhati2 bile memandu!!!!!

testing2!!

hehehehe..setelah diajar oleh janet..br la aku tulis kt blog nih..heheheh nanti pas2 nih i tulis yg laen k..tunggu!!

Working again

Today is my first day working...from home....sweeet (except for paying the babysitter yg cost skyrocket high)
Nothing fancy about working from home. I got to work in my store room (yikes).. the best part is boleh bangun 5 mins before keje, walk across the room in my pajamas and start working haha. Takdela disgusting mcm tu. Also I get to see Irfan every second..lega sikit rasa. I'll post a picture of my workplace later.

BRAIN~

New phase

Today 06/08/09 I've made a decision not to accept the job offer and be a full time mom.

Zuhri and I have been thinking about this issue for quite some time. The facility that I'm working at is closing in Aug and we have been offered to relocate to Kansas. Suprisingly, despite the economic downturn, both of us were offered a job. Out of the 80 people that survived through many rounds of layoffs, they picked both of us and it really made us feel valuable to the company.

I really wanted to work for the sake of Irfan. I'm not thinking about pampering him with the luxury toys etc, all I'm asking for is a good medical care and treatment for him. He's been struggling with the disease and deserves the best care. It's hard to see the little one struggling for his life and knowing that I won't be able to provide him with a good medical care is scary and I feel hopeless. With one of us woking, the chances of the provider to get laid off is high. If only one of us working and lose job, we will have to go back to Malaysia. It's not the worse thing in the world tapi what about the mdical care there. I've done research, takde specialist on kawasaki or even ped cardiologist and equipment pun takde sgt. It's really a gamble.

Another thought came to mind. There's nobody out there that I can trust to help at this new place. Gem is there but wont be able to help for very long. To find someone local is a long shot. I'm not sure if I can find anybody in a few weeks and trust her to take care of Irfan while I'm at work. The people and place are so alien to me. I'll be scared out of my mind if Irfan is staying with strangers. Plus who wants to come by to our place as early as 5:30 am and leave at 5pm. The working hours are just crazy.
Daycare is not an option even if Irfan is off aspirin. The experince that we had with babysitter and daycare is terrifying enough to even consider them.
We were thinking about getting peopl from Malaysia tapi sape? Both of our parents are still working. Relatives pun busy dgn life masing2 with kids and family. Takde sape nak give up their lives just to help us out even thou we are offering to pay RM 3500 sebulan.

Its a difficult decision. With just depending on one income wo won't have any savings. Bills, rent, groceries and all necessities je akan use up every penny that we earn. This is not even considering buying a house, new cars or even paying for Irfan's bill.

The reality is.. it's going to hard to surviv either way. Kalau keje, I won't feel good about leaving Irfan except with family members. Kalau tak keje, hidup mcm kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang...kalau ade emergency I don't know what to do. And semalam masa discuss dgn Zuhri, tiba2 kitaorg terpikir mcm mana kalau Gem suddenly rasa things are not working out for her and we have to send Irfan to stranger and he gets sick again.. tiba2 I had this weird anxiety rush, badan rasa menggigil and tiba2 bila tgk cemin my neck, chest and tummy turned red. Its the nervous or anxiety rash. Even if Gem boleh tolong, beyond gem's help I dont think I can find anybody. I cannot go through perasaan masa Irfan sakit dulu..perasaan takut amat sakit as if I'm going to lose him. I don't want to risk his health again.

So the decision is made. I have declined the offer and will focus on Irfan until probably he's 2 or so. I will make some other arrangement for myself. I'm hoping that this is not the end of my career and I know that I can do better. I might change my career path but we'll see.. I'd like to think yg rezeki ade di mana2 and semoga ade hikmah dgn ape yg dah jadi. Hopefully we are doing the right thing... and that Allah will guide us to the right path Insyaallah.

Another echo..

We have another echo tomorrow...the 4th one. I'm scared .. I know he's going to be ok insyaallah. Semoga segala complications and abnormalities dah sembuh, semoga irfan akan off aspirin soon. I have faith in him..
Ya Allah tolong lah kami, sembuhkan la Irfan dgn sepenuhnya dan sempurnanya. Amin..