Rambling

I'm sitting on my couch thinking..
Trying to let my brain and imagination do all the work for me
I'm hopeless..
I know that I need to be strong.. for Irfan and the family that I value so much
I never thought that I would have to go through this difficult time
Yet this is the reality of life.. there are ups and down

I'm sitting on my couch thinking..
Everything happened for a reason
And that this might be a turning point
To a whole new joy and adventure
Oh how I wish there is a magical end
To this journey that I'm about to start..

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I dont know why I'm writing this.. tapi rasa mcm best plak huhu. Ni supposely kena tulis resume but tulis ntah pape.

Anyway updates updates..I'm officially going to be unemployed in the next few weeks. Unemployment rate is so skyrocket here in Oregon. I got an offer to work in Independence, 3 hrs away from Gem's place, which is so tempting. But Irfan and Zuhri is my no 1 priority now. I want a career path that that has both my loved ones in the picture..
The only way we can make it work is if zuhri gets to move to Wichita, and I'll be working in Indy. And who's going to take care of Irfan? Mmmm..

Going back to school is not an option for now.. $25k a yr for tuition fee?!$% that's insane
We might wait for green card before we can pursue our post grad dream. Or both of us need to go back to school and get TAship.
I'm so freaked out. I guess this is what happened when you've been in the comfort zone for wayyy tooo looonggg.. *sob sob*